As i came to realise!

As i came to realise that i am back to my normal life i felt a sudden depression, not that that i am not happy with my life, yet my summer experience was extraordinary. i have spent 2 months of my life that is equivelant to all the joy i could have had in the past couple of years. yes, i always had a comfortable and descent life, but ive never experienced reall joy. what we hear people say that they live once just hit me!!

I now believe that i have no time to waste on regret or sorrow, every hour of my life is gona be spent on something that i really deserve and enjoy, you may call it my new resolution. i mean seriously where was i from all this, i thank god for letting me realise what i realised before its too late.

You can say am a new person now, its kind of scary for me too, but i think i like it. i am a stronger, more confident, determined and happy person, gona enjoy living to the fully with preserving my ethics and respect of myself and others.

Things that effected me to become who i am now:

Once in italy i was having a discussion with an italian guy.. he asked: do i drink?, i answered no! He then said: but how do u experience pleasure if you dont get drunk! here i didnt know what to say, yet i said what is the pleasure in getting unconsious and making a fool of yourself.. He was like, doesnt matter who cares!, thats the fun of it. we ended the discussion with neither of us convinced with the other's point of view, but that certainly taught me something. i thought and thought, and thats when i came to understand life, to love my life, and take it simple..

The trip this summer alone taught me to enjoy life, italians love to live and i believe they had a great influence on me. i became a person who hates to complain and say am bored.. coz i realised that even if i was doing nothing i can enjoy life. i believe i can almost smile all the time, i can be nice even to rude people, not for them just for me, coz i wouldnt want anyone to affect my happiness.

Most important is to learn how to appreciat every moment in life. THE FACT THAT WERE ALIVE IS A BLESSING!!

trust me on this..

i dont know if my words made much sense to you, it just does to me!

Thank you god for everything and everyone.. :D

This post was influenced by A. post.. i do feel everything you have said, and i couldnt say it better, ive just added something to it!!


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