The " Dream " post

Alot of people have been asking me lately whether i am satisfied with how things are right now, or whether i would like to change anything, or the ultimate question that i always fail to answer, Whether am happy?

I was lying in bed 10 minutes ago, and then suddenly a vivid image flashed across. It was so clear, so beautiful, so God Damn soothing. This is what i want at this moment.

I want to wake up in my king size, white sheeted bed, to a well lit room, with wide clear glass windows that reflect nasty sunlight in my eyes. I would wake up, stretch my arms moaning, just like they do it in movies. I want to get up and splash cold water in my face, tasting the fresh water every time i rinse. After that i want to head downstairs to my own livinig room. The one i decorated myself. And no, not with classy artifacts and golden frameworks, instead with a sleak couch and a couple of buddhist heads sitting on my side tables. I would make myself the nastiest coffee because obviously i cant make coffee, and still didnt get the hang of it. My mornings would be quick at home, because i usually wake up late, especially after leaving my alarm to snooze for 40minz.

What i want ?? i want to head out, not in a car, but walk. I really want to walk to school, and feel the cool breeze through my tied pony tailed hair. Greet my friendly neighbour and pat his dog Rusty on my way out. And just before i reach school, i head out to my favorite coffee place, because the thing i made at home was definitly not coffee. I want to walk in and have the waiter, Alessandro, whom i know by his first name, greet me and order me my usual. I want to have a usual.

I want to be in a school where they dont give a fuck about attendance. You attend, you dont, who gives a damn, its your life. Am not a kid anymore. I dont have to rush my life and try and make it at 8:00 sharp or else am considered absent. I want to be in a school with a proper student council. A council that deals with real issues, not events such as Kareoke nights and whether we can extend the curfew for dorm poeple so they can party harder. Hell i want to be in a place where i dont have to walk on marble. Who am i, A princess ?? i dont think so. I want to debate, argue, be involved in riots, fight for a cause, anything political, anything with a real meaning.

At the end of the day, i want to hang out with friends, at my usual hang out, where i just sit and catch up and maybe even invite my girlfriends over for a sleepover. And if they were buzy, i just want to come back home to an empty house. Where am the queen, and my furniture are my peers; i dont want to say servants because i love them too much. I want to kick back, have a nice turkey sandwhich and watch Conan O' Brian. And if i cant get my lazy ass upstairs i can simply sleep on my couch.

Thats what i want. A life of my own.

A.